Look at me.

I'm wrapped in metal bubble wrap
I can't feel you anymore


Your cold fingers
Your sickening tongue


I stopped begging
Wasted to much energy


I just want the numbness to envelope me  
Just want the blood to seep out through these track marks



I'm done with crying, groveling
I'm done worrying about the shame of giving up
Of not caring what you do to my body


The cigarette burns that decorate my skin like scabby pus filled jewels
The rope burns coil around my wrists my ankles
Barbed wire scars wind lazily down my spine


You love me right?
At least that what you say after your done with me
When I'm all dried up
When the heroine leaves your veins


I hear you footsteps coming down the stairs
My chains rattle as a decrease as far as I can into the corner
You find me anyway laughing you yank my hair back
Slide your yellowing finger nails down the column of my neck


You laugh as I flinch
You spit on me and throw me to the floor
I scramble away as a foot comes down on my back



You squat down and grab my chin and whisper
Your breath laboring under the stench of cheap alcohol
You slap me when I don't make eye contact



_{Don't you know I love you? Why don't  you ever look me in the eyes?}